A diffuse awareness of everything…
In our garden there is a wonderful vantage point where one can see everything contained within it. If I stay there for a while and watch quietly it is possible to rest into a certain diffuse awareness of all the flora and fauna therein – it is a pleasant and educational way to spend some time. Imagine that I take this up as a regular practise: if I observe everything in an unbiased fashion, not just the plants I prefer or the creatures I consider most interesting, I will, after a certain amount of time, become quite knowledgeable about what goes on in my garden. For not only would I witness all the obvious things that transpire but also the small interactions; the constant changes evident in how everything relates and balances together. After a time I could come to understand my little environment at a deep level. If it seemed necessary to alter something in my garden having acquired this prior experience would allow me to do so in accordance with its nature; rather than blindly interfering I could intelligently augment using the same awareness in my actions that I had cultivated in my practise.
We are well versed in looking outside and relying on external sources for information. However, when it comes to our own body and mind a different orientation is required – for everything we do and experience is embodied via our own ‘raw materials’ and yet the vast implications of this are difficult to realise. In my experience, learning how to use the body and mind in an optimal way can be directly facilitated by developing a diffuse somatosensory or ‘internal’ awareness of the whole. Standing Meditation offers a superb way to build such a vantage point – and much more besides.
There are many fascinating aspects in Standing practise, like life it is beautifully simple and incredibly nuanced. Rather than a chore to try and get to the end of or an abstract goal to achieve, it offers a process of real-time experiential body-mind education that promotes a pragmatic balance between rest and work.
Standing has foundational, intermediate and advanced levels which all emphasise different elements of the same continuum – my aim here is to elucidate key themes. Within the training are a wide variety of postures and an array of fascinating kinaesthetic tools that train the fascial fabric and neuromuscular system in a unique way, and just like seated meditation it is efficacious in building highly desirable brain plasticity. Postures range from a simple neutral stance to more physically demanding positions and even to postures on one leg which can be enjoyed for extended periods of time.
‘We want to ‘balance’ our skeleton 3-dimensionally within the fluid and elastic elements of our fascial fabric‘
Standing training seeks to build directly a real familiarity with, and visceral knowledge of, the raw materials of our own body and mind: all the postures we utilise should move us tangibly toward optimum internal biomechanics, present moment awareness and ease as our default settings for how we move and operate in the world. We do not want to force ourselves to stand for as long as possible, nor disappear into a trance or think about special things – common misconceptions. The aim is to develop a balanced physio-cognitive state of relaxation and non-distraction. As one might expect, to sit down in a half squat or stand on one leg for any length of time with a real sense of effortlessness, is an obvious challenge. Less obvious is that most people find the entry point postures demanding enough.
To sustain the simple balanced body-shape of a standing posture for a period can be surprisingly taxing – and educational – any lack of whole-body integration is likely to become evident. Elements which do not exhibit sufficient structural support, appropriate tensional balance and whole-body connection will rapidly make themselves known, although this is something we are unlikely to notice unless we try for ourselves. Regular tactile cues and guidance from a knowledgeable teacher are invaluable in moving us in a favourable direction because our usual body-mind habits are thoroughly engrained.
It is difficult for many people to comprehend that when we train in Standing we do not want to hold ourselves in a fixed position using either overt control or brute force. Instead, we want to experience how our skeleton floats 3-dimensionally within the visco-elastic elements of the fascial fabric in which it floats and learn how to optimise this process via release. There is a fluid omnidirectional presence and stability that we want to uncover and develop which provides an incredibly useful basis for human movement and function. As well as building many vital aspects of one’s own body-knowledge, doing so allows us to form a favourable long-term relationship with gravity rather than continuing our usual futile fight against it.
While these are simplistic examples every person exhibits various combinations of such qualities in the body in a way that is distinct to them. We all have bits that are too loose, too tight, too strong, too weak, move too much or not enough and yet it all works together, for better or worse. It is the working relationship, balance and integration of the whole that we want to come to know; to uncover and improve our own body-knowledge for ourselves from ourselves. This presents an impossible task to realise intellectually – and a difficult one to actualise via the complexities of movement – but Standing offers a chance for us to do so because it of its simplicity and stillness.
‘It is hard to convey to intellectuals the intellectual superiority of experience’ – Nassim Taleb
Compared to watching a film, a freeze-frame allows many more details to come to light; you lose the narrative and in doing so you get to see things as they are at that point in time. With the act of deliberate motion taken out of the equation Standing comprises an experiential ‘movement snapshot’ and an opportunity to get to grips with the usual distractions of our own internal narrative. An over stimulated and distracted mind is like a wobbly low-definition camera, it’s impossible to get a clear picture of what’s what:
You are looking out over a large, beautiful lake. It is a stormy day and the surface of the water is being whipped by the wind and the rain to form an endless stream of indistinguishable waves, shapes and patterns. After steadily surveying the scene for a time the storm gradually allays – the surface of the lake begins to settle. Watching quietly and patiently you start to notice how each waning drop of rain and gust of wind distinctly pattern and affect the water. Eventually the storm subsides completely; tranquillity transpires, the lake becomes motionless and clear. To your immense curiosity you can see through the surface and all the way to the lakebed – the fascinating topography of an underwater world presents itself.
The wind and rain equate to the incessant habitual patterning of a busy mind upon our experience; it masks our ability to see clearly beyond the surface. Via multiple tools implicit in good Standing practise we can, over time, gradually lower our base rate of stimulation/distraction and perceive the fundamental aspects and qualities of our own body and mind more clearly.
The Gravitas of Gravity
‘A body unbound from tension is at liberty to respond to gravity with ‘free’ support from the ground upwards; to effortlessly inflate in all directions with fluid stability and elastic movement potential’
A simple way of looking at Standing can be as the experiential study of gravity – our body is the subject and one’s mind needs to be calm and stable in order to observe the results objectively. Let us imagine that for a fish who spends her whole life in water the very sensation of being immersed is so continuous that it would hardly be noticed. I do not know what the experience of a fish is like, but I do know that the persistent force of gravity is something we do not usually notice. Despite this, gravity is one of the most significant players in how the human body is organised and how we move. A fun example: when you jump into a swimming pool one immediately feels the whole body enveloped and supported by water – the sense of freedom is wonderfully liberating. However, when you clamber out again you probably don’t stand there and remark “Ah Gravity my old friend, how supportive!” But you could…
Standing is an excellent tool for traversing an experiential path toward making gravity our friend. One skill vital to this process is the release of unnecessary tension at progressively deeper levels. Releasing that which impedes the body from effortlessly supporting itself re-familiarises us with how we can deal with gravity in an optimal way and incurs massive gains in body awareness, postural stability and motor control. Furthermore, it facilitates considerable all-round health benefits.
This act of letting go can be counter-intuitive but poses a rewarding challenge; for don’t we all spend an inordinate amount of effort holding on to things? Unknowingly, most people tend to carry considerable amounts of tension which it would be very prudent to let go of even, and sometimes especially, persons who are highly trained. A tense body is a blunt and unfeeling instrument, extremely uneconomical and highly prone to injury and illness. While we neither want a body that is an over-stretched or a floppy mess there is an intelligent middle way between the two extremes. Unfortunately, we do not know any better until we do and that means to continually accrue a wider experiential or ‘felt’ frame of reference.
Developing the Release Signal
If you clench your hand into a fist and hold it tight for a while you can see that the colour changes as the fluids are squeezed out from the tissues. After some time you may feel that the tension also manifests in the arm and shoulder – and eventually other places too. If you persist for long enough you start to lose the feeling in your fist completely, for along with the flow of fluids, your neural functioning and perception will be severely impeded. When you eventually release the hand back to a normal it is quite a relief: the colour returns as the fluids rehydrate the tissues and sensory perception and function are revived.
If I were to do the opposite and stretch my hand and fingers out as much as possible it would be the same as squeezing my hand into a tight fist but in reverse. It’s certainly no better or more useful; all the same restrictions will manifest. When I release my over stretched hand back to normal relief ensues once again.
The release signal is a specific command that your mind gives to tell your fist, or overstretched hand, to relax, let go and return to normal. In order to be able to do this you already need to know where your hand is in your internal, or felt, body map. This is easy because we are usually reasonably aware of our hands, but not so the rest of our body. Via the lens of stillness, Standing creates an opportunity to look for, find, feel and build upon the real-time internal architecture and landscape of ones body – all whilst doing something quintessential to human movement. By developing and applying the release signal we can gradually restore the whole body back to balance, ease and away from fixed extremes.
Once a person has reached a certain benchmark a new experience of how the body supports itself will come to light. Rather than being continually oppressed by gravity a body unbound from inappropriate tension is at liberty to respond to it with ‘free’ support from the ground upwards; to effortlessly inflate in all directions with awareness, fluid stability and elastic movement potential. This has many similarities with the liberation of being in water but because we are immersed in gravity, and infused with liquid ourselves, exhibits a highly desirable and sustainable balance between stability and freedom of movement.
It is important to note that this skill is not acquired by ‘trying’ to do it; it is counter intuitive. We do not want to pull ourselves up, suck bits in, try to be tall or ‘tight and light’, such in-fighting results in more unwanted tension. Neither do we want to collapse into a soggy heap in a bid to relax. Instead, our progress comes as the natural result of an open-minded sensory inquiry into release and omnidirectional balance.
The genius and efficacy of Standing lies in its simplicity: the absence of deliberate movement allows one the chance to discover and develop fundamental attributes of the body and mind that we usually miss due to habituation. By repeatedly bringing the wandering mind back to rest on internally observing and releasing our standing form not only can we develop some considerable skill in mindfulness but also uncover an ever-deepening level of body-knowledge and awareness of ourselves as a holistic unit of function.
holistic: that the parts of something are inextricably connected and explicable only by reference to the whole
On a personal level I continually find Standing deeply enjoyable, educational and beneficial. While there is always room for improvement, I have enjoyed developing whole-body awareness, movement and power, not to mention superb health. I have also benefited from building a sense of peace and ease within my mind and body that isn’t reliant upon anything other than my ability to pay attention. As I get older I genuinely feel that all these attributes only improve rather than diminish.
A further bonus: I have a passion for wildlife and the natural world – I’ve lost count of the occasions I have witnessed beautiful aspects of nature and wildlife while training outside. Being calm and still in some quiet spot in nature allows the interconnectedness of our environment to come to light. All manner of creatures come along when I am training outside; they are completely unperturbed by my motionless standing form. In fact, some of them seem to like it.
Finally, I have seen excellent development in the people whom I have taught the practise to over the years. The students who take the initiative to regularly train in Standing usually end up super-strong and relaxed, and with considerably better body-mind skills than those who do not due to the deep awareness and body knowledge they develop. Deceptively simple, it is a superb resource.
©The Internal Athlete 2023